I think I'm Cursed...

I can count the number of 2nd dates I've had... Dax back in high school, but we were always just friends and doing each other favors, and he's happily married. Tyler after we wrote on his mission, but he has been married now for a year. Then there was David who was into me for a week then was done. Clint... lol... just great friends, we hang out all the time. Andy took me to an Aggies game and then I asked him to a dance at the institute. I can't forget the run around I've had with Jeff in the last 8 months, we never went out, but there were feelings there for sure, and now he lives in Salt Lake and I haven't heard from him since he moved. Now Craig, who I took a risk and met him online. We texted, met for dinner, texted some more, went to lunch and now, even after texting him myself I haven't heard form him since our 2nd date.
No this isn't me having a pity party. I'm just stating my curse, or the fact that God has a plan for all of us, and I haven't met "The One" yet. Some people would get discouraged by this, I do get frustrated, but we have to understand that it is part of life. Some people get to that stage early, and for some of us it takes some time, but we'll all get there in the end.
One day I will meet my prince charming... I guess I just haven't reached that day.



haha! i'm no good at this!

Oh dear... I get on a kick and post and then it seems I fall of the face of this earth. Don't know if I'll ever be a pro at this...

Anyway, so much fun has happend! Back in March we went to Moab for Spring Break. That is a whole post itself that I may, or may not get up in the future.

We;ve been working on wedding stuff for Lindsay and Travis and that hasn't been too bad, until planning the Bridal Shower. Which was good, until Lindsay's Great-Grandma passed and we decided to postpone the party. This weekend we will do Lindsay's bridals! Yay! I will be doing her hair, and driving her around so she doesn't have to in her dress. My bridesmaid dress came, I love it... except I might have issues as the company designed it with only one pocket... my OCD may kick in... but I'll deal.

I also went on a really good date. I haven't had one of those in a really long time... at least one where there is some possible potential. I met him online, and we chatted, then texted, then met at Texas Roadhouse for dinner. We ate and talked for about an hour and a half. So far he seemed to be a really great guy. The following week we continued to text, making jokes, and I know on my end I was laughing a lot. We were going to hang out again at my FHE, as they were doing a dutch oven dinner with 4 wards combined. But his sister-in-law came into town and he ended up babysitting his niece. That was ok as I was at the hospital with my own sister-in-law awaiting the arrival of my nephew Brody O'Dell! But since we ended up not getting together there are plans for another date this weekend. I'm super excited, he is a really good guy.

Back to that other information... I'm an Aunt! Yup, Andy and Leza had little Brody on Mon, May 16, at 9:00ish. He is so dang cute and has taken up all my spare time lol. He looks like Andy, but has Leza's nose, and I'm sure we'll notice many more similarities of both of them as he continues to grow. They are home today, at Leza's parents, and are doing great. They will continue to live here in the valley until about July when they will bless him and then we will say goodbye as they move to Vernal. Good thing its not too far away and we can make many weekend trips to see them.

That is an update on this crazy thing I call my life.

Airsofting and a blind date!

My really good friend Mandy Walker has decided to go on a Mission, and she goes into the MTC in 7 days! Oh gosh, she is going to be such an amazing missionary! Anyways I wasn't able to make her home ward farewell but we so needed to hang out before she left. After talking she told me to come down the following weekend, and she was talking in her singles ward. So it was decided that I'd go down on Saturday and we could hang for the whole weekend.

I decided to text Mandy on Friday to double check that it was still cool for me to come down. Of course it was, although she forgot and had planned a group date with her sisters. Well I could come down later, or on Sunday no big deal. But no, she was like, you should come down still, we'll find you a date and you can come along! Can I tell you how much I dislike blind dates! I think I've only ever had 1 good blind date...(this one makes it 1 1/2).

So they find me a date. I get to the Walker house Saturday around 3pm and the date is set for 4pm. I'm informed that we are going Airsofting... any of you that don't know... airsoft's are guns that shoot pellets that are a little softer that BB's. Personally not a fan of getting shot at, but hey why not, it'll be interesting to say the least. Their dates all show up and we start loading up on ammo. My date isn't there yet, Dave texts him and he's finishing watching the BYU game :( sad day, he bleeds the wrong blue. We figure out we don't have enough guns so Mandy and I go to Wal-Mart to get another one.

We get back close to 5pm and my date is there, yay, his name as John, he was tall, cute, he gave me a hug, and oh man did he smell good! Bring on the guns, lets get this party started! So we head outside and have a war, girls against guys... Man those pellets hurt! But it was so much fun.

When it got dark and we have just starting shooting anyone, and couldn't see out of the sunglasses anymore we went inside for dinner. BBQ chicken, potatoes, and rolls. YUMMY. Well after dinner we decided to go the Olympic oval for some ice skating... there was a YSA activity going on so it was free. Well my date had already made plans for later that evening as he was just informed of the Airsofting so he had to leave.

We got to the rink and were in line to get skates when we run into my date returning his skates... he gave me a hug... YUM... and said his plans were meeting here with friends and now they were headed to a movie. But we had a good time skating, keeping Dave from crashing as last time he went skating 5 years earlier he fell and shattered his jaw. Then watched Secondhand Lions back at the Walkers with a great slice of pie.

After church on Sunday I'm talking to Jess about guys and our date and I get the greatest story from her...

Apparently they hadn't first set me up with John... My original date Sterling had canceled by texting Jess at noon on Saturday! His excuse... my sister is having her baby sometime around 4-5 so I can't make it... ok but why does he have to be there? Sorry bros... you're not invited to me having kids, you an come see me the next day! Jess was at school so she couldn't find me a date and Mandy was stressing over her talk. Their mom Debbie said to call Dave and have him get me a date, good idea, it was done. One problem with Dave having this assignment... he told John that a group of people were getting together to play Airsoft... he didn't know he was on a date till he showed up at Mandy's house! which then explains why he was texting all night and then had to leave with plans already made!

At least it made a great story, and it wasn't even a bad one, this is definitely on the good list, at least half way.

So Happy!

I love girl nights!!! Just going over to my old apartment where I'm considered by everyone the sudo-roommate since I'm over there all the time but I don't always sleepover.

Anyways all my girls left for the holidays... Lindsay to Kansas for 4 weeks. Emily to Riverton for 4 weeks, Cessi to Missouri for 2 weeks, and Veronica to Roosevelt for 1 week. This last year I've realized how much I depend on these girls as well as my family. They are my life and I love them all dearly. This summer living in Kaysville at my Uncle Tom's house was so fun and a great experience, but I found very quickly that not coming up on the weekend threw off my whole week. School was great, but the people there weren't the greatest and they would pull me down to their level. Almost all of them had an LDS background, but none of them lived it anymore. They are all great people but not ones that I would hangout with after school. It was so nice and refreshing coming up to Logan every weekend and getting that life and spirit back.

This holiday with my girls gone I've been stuck at home with pretty much nothing to do, I'm not a big gamer so when Santa brought our family a Wii for Christmas it didn't really phase me. But I got Burn Notice Season 2 so I holed up in my room for a few days. Also once you come of a certain age its hard coming back to your parents house... even worse, getting rid of your car and having to ask to borrow one of your parents.

But Cessi is back!!! And we hung out tonight. It was so good catching up since as she was gone she acquired a new boyfriend who is in our ward and lives right behind Emily's house in Yorkshire Village... the house we window chalked a few weeks ago after FHE. But just talking and chatting made my day. Her fun story and excitement over TJ rubbed off on me and I can't stop smiling. Its so great.

Love you guys :)

Thinking about where I am, where I'm going, and what got me here

So this is kinda weirding me out to write about but its on my mind so I need to write to get it off my chest. Usually I'm very happy and optimisic, can't wait for what comes next, and just happy being where I'm at, with the great people that I surround myself with. But tonight I just feel old and lonely which are two things that I most certainly am not!

Sarina and Tyler got engaged tonight. Out of my group of friends from Middle School in Evanston, Wyo there are very few of us left. Also the real kicker is that everyone is married or getting married to someone else in the group. Scott and Brooke married. Cameron and Kayla married. Conrad and Alex engaged. Chris married, with a kid. And now Tyler and Sarina engaged. There are still a few of us left, but the only one I still talk to is Shane and as far as I know we are just friends.

I consider myself very accomplished. I'm a hairdresser/stylist/nail tech, I graduated from esthetics school and just need to take my test to be a Master Esthetician. I've done a little traveling, moved out been on my own, done so many things that I wouldn't have been able to do if I settled down already. And I have a job where I will get to do more traveling, meet new people and have many more crazy adventures... when I finally leave.

I've been watching the show Being Erica lately and I love it. Erica is 32, still single, and recently fired. She meets this therapist who is able to send her back in time. She has the chance to change how she did things, and usually she learns that by changing things she is still the same person but has learned a lesson that she can apply to her life now. Its so true you have to learn from your past and not make the same mistakes.

Its been reminding me of myself of late. I've been thinking back on my life, wondering where I would be had I one through High School differently, had I dated James or Billy. Or even just this past year, Billy got home off his mission and I ran screaming the other way. I started dating David, but he wasn't the guy for me so it ended as fast as it started, these days if you're not interested they feel lead on if you keep going on dates. But I know that things happen for a reason and you just keep going along in life. Hopefully you learn something and grow stronger. Anyways Im getting off this soap box of mine with a song that I have grown to love. Most of you will recognize it, and right now it is how I feel.

 

The 3rd Date and The End.

So David and I talked a lot about everything on our dates and through texting. Anyways for our 3rd date David asked me to come keep him warm at the USU vs. Boise State football which was on Nov. 20, at 7:30 PM. I figured it was going to be a cold night!

David picked me up and we went to Jimmy Johns and split a sandwich then had to run back to my house to grab Emily's ID card that I forgot. We went to the game all prepared with hats, gloves, extra socks, coats and blankets. And as it turned out it was a warm night in the 50's! And although USU lost by 31 points it was a fun time. Afterwards we got back to my house and sat in the driveway in David’s car for almost 2 hours just talking.
Talking is the best way to get to know someone, you get to know what they are all about. The following day was not only Andy and Leza's 1 year anniversary but my cousin Brady got married that day down in SLC. So my family went down and that whole day I was kinda in a foul mood, not grouchy to anyone or mean, but just quiet and thinking. Although it finally hit me the next morning why I was that way. I realized that it was mine and David's talk.
The way he looks at things are not what I'm looking for, he is very mediocre in looking at things of the gospel, and the church. I'm not looking for the next apostle but I do want someone who is willing to take those callings and learn from them, not someone who complains about his current calling or thinks those 'bigger' callings are for Peter Priesthood. I'm not saying I want a Peter Priesthood, but I am looking for someone who has a great testimony and wants to continue to grow! I'm no where near perfect but I love learning more and growing, thats what callings and talking in church is for, to help you learn and grow.
I still like him, and one day he is going to make someone very happy, but he's just not the guy for me. I'm going to still keep looking.

A second date

So I went on a second date with David on Tuesday. David served his mission in Brazil and on campus there was a Brazillian charity dinner of sorts and he got us tickets. He was so excited because it was going to be authentic food and he couldn't wait for me to try it.
We got to the alumni building and I see a bunch of people that I know. We're in line for food and are just having a good time talking and David apparently realizes its not as authentic as he was hoping. But he doesn't inform me quite yet. We grab the food and have a seat. The drink was red colored water, not the best at all, but atleast I enjoyed the food, I didn't know any different.
Anyways we got done and went back to his place and watched UP :) way cute movie if you haven't seen it yet I suggest it! We watch the movie and get talking afterwards and David starts saying something and then backs out. Well it was too late, I knew he was going to say something and have to know what. I keep bugging him and he finally tells me that he saw weavels in the seasoning we put on our food!!! OMG gross!!! I couldn't believe it! Talk about disguisting!

Some fun new stuff!

So... I know everyone is dying to hear, well I think they are ppl seem pretty excited over facebook about it anyways :) So about a week and a half ago I met this guy at country swing dancing. Me and my old roommate, and one of my best friends ever, Lindsay try to go every week. We have some good friends there and its one of the only places that I meet new ppl since I'm not going to school right now and I work at the Elementary school... no one to really meet there.
Anyways, I usually don't meet many new ppl, Lindsay never just stands tho, she's always dancing! Love her to pieces. But this particular night was a lot of fun. I had a bunch of guys asking me to dance and it was fun. This one kid was here from Peru going to school, and he asked for my number and wanted to go out that weekend. I love different cultures ad everything don't get me wrong, but I kinda have issues if I can't understand someones broken english, so as fun as he seemed and cute, I was glad to be going toSt. George that weekend. But he got my number anyways.
Later that night as I was standing just enjoying the good music a guy asks me to dance. Well he apparently doesn't know that much, just learning and asks me to show him some stuff. This isn't my forte! I usually tell guys that i'm not a good teacher and after stuggling through a dance they leave. David happened to not care and just danced with me laughing the whole time. After the song was over he kept talking to me, just chatting, nothing that I even remember. Well he stayed by my side for the rest of the evening. Lindsay and I like a few of the line dances so when we were doing those David was great at attempting! He een made me attempt with him on one that I don't know, but since he was such a good sport I figured I better be too. Anyways he was way cute all night, he kept gabbng my hands and trying different things, he figured out 'the cuddle' and kept doing that over and over again it was way cute. It came time to go so we left and said our goodbyes and that was that.
I found out his last name at the church on Sunday and decided to look him up on facebook and I found him, but I couldn't bring myself to add him. Tuesday night for our IWA activity we were combining with an IMA chapter and they wanted to have a dating panel, just asking questions back and forth about dating so we agreed. Well these boys helped me out a lot, one thing they said they liked about girls is when they are bold... most guys are completely oblivious when a girl likes them, they said to ask for the guys number, that tells the guy that you are interested and they're more likely to do something. So I had my challenge... be bold, very difficult for me but something was going to happen.
David ended up not going dancing on wednesday so I decided to be bold since I couldn't shake him from my mind. I got home after dancing and got on facebook, I added him as a friend, putting a little note saying I missed him that night and I hd a ton of fun the week before. Well he accepted, commented on my status, and on friday sent me an email asking if I had any fun plans for the weekend, and to let him know. OH GOSH!!! it worked! Sad day for me my weekend was all booked, but my girls would understand me bailing on them for the football game to go instead with a boy! And ofcourse, they didn't mind at all.
Saturday, David picked me up around 12:30ish for the game... cold, and snowy, but perfect because together we could stay somewhat warm :) We then went to an early dinner at Pounders, a new hawaiian grill in Logan. Where we sat and talked some more (since we talked all through the game). He took me home around 6:30 where of course I got the 3rd degree from the family. Here is wht ws said between Lexie and I
Lexie: Did you have fun?
Me: Yes... (big grin)
Lexie: Did you kiss him?
Me: WHAT? Who do you think I am?
Lexie: You.
Me: What does that even mean?
Oh goodness, its a good thing I love her. Anyways there is going to be a 2nd date where we are going to watch UP, which I have found to be very HILarious! More details to come. Don't think anything is going to come from this, remember I am getting ready to leave for Hawaii, and he's going to Park City, plus as we talked yesterday, we both agree that Utahans are crazy getting engaged after only knowing each other for a short time. We both agree in dating and getting to know each other before committing to forever with someone.